05 October 2009

Jack Bauer, what have you done to me?!

Remember how I was really excited about the Mad Hatter Vintage Flea Market?  Remember that?  Well.....I didn't go.  AHHH! 

Here's why....ready for this???  I STAYED UP UNTIL 3 AM WATCHING 24.

Ally, Noah (her lil' baby), my mom and I were hooked in from about 10 to 3 AM.  Yep. 

So chippy furniture, numbers and letters, old glittery goodness...all replaced by Jack Bauer and his scruff sexy voice, Tony Almeida's signature soul patch....Michelle's curls.....

The nails on both ring fingers and pinky fingers are completely gone.  GONE!

We did end up going on the "Selkirk Loop" and hitting a few antique and thrift stores.  I got an old money bag which I'm gonna turn into a pillow...some halloween things, some vintage blocks for a friend of mine...and the whole way, we got to play with this guy:

So he totally made my day.  And even though we didn't get to go spend our life savings and eat ramen for a year, I think I'll live :)

I'm at work BLASTING Aretha Franklin, Etta James, Michael Buble...I just need some good soul music today. 

"A woman’s only human

You should understand

She’s not just a plaything

She’s flesh and blood just like her man

If you want a do-right-all-day woman

You’ve got to be a do-right-all-night man"

I     l  o  v  e     m  y    h  u  s  b  a  n  d :)

I need some prayers today ladies.  I am really trying hard not to get discouraged and give up, but I just want to!  Last November, I found out I was pregnant.  On New Years Eve, I had a miscarriage.  

Now I'm not saying this because I want pity and bla bla bla, but I am finding it really really hard to not get angry because I haven't been able to get pregnant again since then.  We keep trying, but every month, it never happens.  Some months, I even get all the symptoms...I just don't get it.  I don't know whether I should keep trying, or just let it be for awhile and get back on some sort of birth control.  BLAH.  I know this is kind of a heavy hearted post but I know you gals are so encouraging and have such good advice.  Anyways...any advice you have would be much appreciated!  And prayers too.  Those usually work the best anyway :)  

I hope everyone has a fantastic week!  I'll be starting a diet and exercise plan tonight....woohoo!  I'll make sure and post all about it. Oh, and I'm PAINTING tonight.  Expect some photos :).



~ RM said...

:( Please don't give up hope. It WILL happen, just not exactly how you think it will happen. And for now, just spend some time on yourself and your hubby, and let the planning come from somewhere else... good luck...

Samantha2818 said...

Hi Jana,
I'm really sorry to hear about your miscarriage. I had one last year too and it amazed me how devastated I was. I already have two children and last years pregnancy was a shock - a very pleasant one but by the time I'd got use to it it was all over. Very painful and emotional so accept the pity - it's not a nice thing to have gone through and we need to take time to grieve for the loss of expectation. Before I had my two gorgeous babies I was told that I would need fertility treatment which I put off as we were living in London away from family and support etc but anyway we came home from London last minute for a weekend when my in-law's were on holiday and conceived my son - I'm sure it was because we were relaxed to be home with our friends, chilled cos my in-laws were away and we had the house to ourselves and obviously getting pregnant wasn't on our minds cos we were told it was unlikely SO my point is relax and try not to put too much pressure on yourselves and it will happen - you've already done it once so you know you can. Good luck and enjoy your gorgeous husband while you can - when the babies do come you'll be shattered! I'll be saying a little prayer for you too - hope it helps x

Kasey said...

I'm so sorry about both situations...but really sad to hear about the miscarriage.
My advice is:
don't try!
seems like when my friends stopped trying...

Vintage Junky said...

I agree with Kasey... just relax and then hopefully it will happen. Stress will screw up alot of things health related.

Smiles and happy thoughts coming your way!

blushing rose said...

Sweetie, the best thing you can do for yourself is get involved in ANYTHING to take your mind off of this & WHAT a surprise you will have not long after ... don't focus on the desire nor the tragedy ...

I am so sorry you had this life loss, I am the Mother of a 3 yr. old angel son, Sen Ean, forever ...

You may always write me to talk if you need support, I am here. Prayers will be lifted for you.

Hugs, TTFN ~Marydon

Twig - Love Your Home said...

Oh ladies, thank you so much for the encouraging words! I am seriously overwhelmed by the blogging world sometimes, in that you find so many new friends who you feel like you've known forever! :) I really appreciate it, and we're going to definitely take some time and try and relax and forget about it. Love you guys! :)

JennyMac said...

My Hub loves watching 24 as well so I get it, I really do.

So sorry to hear about your miscarriage. And two of my friends struggled to get pregnant...one of them for six years. When they stopped trying...within a year they were both pregnant.

Sending posisitve thoughts your way.

Polly said...

It sounds like you have been through a lot these past several months. Just stay positive and things will work out as they should!

I have enjoyed visiting your blog! You really have done some awesome things for Halloween!

Would you mind passing along to me the name of who sings the song on your playlist "What if you"? I just love that guy's voice!

By the way, I nominated you for the honest scrap award. You can visit my blog to learn the details if you are interested in participating!

Take care,

Polly at Sassafras

Twig - Love Your Home said...

Hey Polly! Thanks!!! I'm so excited, I got an award! :D Anyways, What If You is by Joshua Radin (I LOVE his music, if you can't tell...I've got like 3 or 4 songs on that playlist by him haha). His music is infectuous for sure!

And thanks again everyone for the encouragement and advice. It really does mean a TON.

Elle said...

I'm sorry about your miscarriage, I had one in January and it was one of the most excruciating experiences physically and emotionally of my life.
My sister has had similar problems she miscarried several times, and after the last one the doctor told her to wait a year and try then... 8 weeks later, she's pregnant with baby Jaxson...
Everybody's body is different, but what I do know is putting stress on yourself about it isn't good for you... hang in there, don't get back on the pill, but don't focus on it. Find something else in your life that you really want to achieve before you start a family and start working towards that goal. For me it was going to medical school, for my sister it was buying a house. Create a space in another area of your life where you feel like your making progress and moving towards starting a family, and if after a year without taking the pill you still aren't pregnant, then talk to a fertility specialist.

Twig - Love Your Home said...

Thanks Elle...it was a more emotionally draining experience than I thought it would be -- even so early on. Crazy! Yeah, we're just gonna take it one day at a time now and just relax and see what God has in store. I really appreciate your advice :)

Lynn said...

Hi Sweetie ... I am truly sorry for your loss as I also experienced 3 miscarriages early on in my marriage (was truly heartbroken) & was told it was just one of those things, nothing was wrong ... and then did not get pregnant again.

Sadly, by the time Dr's really found out I had severe endometrosis ... the turmors had spread & caused a significant amount of damage ... although we tried infertility for several years, in between surgeries for the endometrosis, which was extremely draining, (financially & emotionally) as I'm sure you can well imagine ... and as I too, had all those feelings & symptoms of being pregnant and didn't want to give up, regardless of my health. ... Sadly the end result was not what we hoped and resulted in my having a complete hysterectomy at the age of 34 ... which was completely devastating to both of us.

I don't want to cause you more sadness than you're already experiencing & I don't want you to give up hope ... because I personally know lots of couples who have gone on to have very successful pregnancies ... and very healthy & adorable babies ... it's just that, if I can save you any heartache from going to your Dr too late ... then I will feel as though my story may be of some help to you & your husband.

If you have the oportunity to speak with your Dr ... because it's been awhile since you've gotten pregnant again ... please, I encourage you to just ask & make sure you don't have endometrosis, which could prevent you from conceiving or carring full term and if everything is fine ... which ... I truly hope is the case ... then just try & relax ... try to concentrate on the other areas of your life!

Just so you know ... although I don't have any children of my own and life didn't go as planned ... I have had the opportuinty since, to work with children in the school system & other areas of my life which has brought me a great amount of joy! I even eventually started my own business hosting little girl tea parties!

So Sweetie ... concentrate on the love you & your husband have for each other and don't let trying to conceive a child be at the forefront of your happiness ... I know it's not easy ... but ... please, trust me when I say your husband needs to feel as though he is with you because you want to be with him ... (he's vulnerable... even if he seems fine) not because you've gotten so focused on having a child ... spend time together doing the things you like to do & it will just happen.

And if for some reason God doesn't bring a child into your life the way you're hoping ... just remember ... "nuturing" a child is truly a gift ... even if they aren't your own ... any child that becomes a part of your life ... will love you dearly!

As the "favorite" auntie & adult friend ... I truly wish you much joy & happiness! All my love & prayers ~ Lynn xo

p.s. if you ever need to chat, my blog site is "little cottage girl" and my personal email address is "pink cottage charm" (all one word)at aol.com ~ Gods Blessings :)